“We all have to think if we can become a little poorer, all of us have to do this. How can I become a little poorer to be more like Jesus, who was the poor Teacher?” – attributed to Pope Francis.
This may be the most overtly religious post I’ve put on the blog so far, but I like the quote. I was raised Catholic and, though I’m not a practicing Catholic anymore, I still like some of their religious traditions.
The idea of poverty of spirit or spiritual poverty appeals to me, and I try to apply it to my life, recovery, and overall sense of spirituality. I’m not super-familiar with the spiritual poverty idea, but the way I look at it is this: when all is said and done, and I’m stripped of material comforts and the other things that the world provides, I believe a loving God is still there.
This idea has been put to the test during some of my darkest times. When my father was sick and my mental health was deteriorating, I took comfort in the knowing that I still felt somewhat of a connection with God.
There were many times I felt far from God during that period, where I even felt like I’d been abandoned by Him. But even when I had to check into a psychiatric ward in 2017, I still had some semblance of trust.
My mind was scattered and messy, and the only times I felt peace during my stay in the ward was when I got quiet and prayed and meditated in my room. When all else failed, I believe my faith kept me going.